Dreams

Tonight my parents pulled me aside and told me I am working to hard.
I am astounded that those words would come from my parents mouth.

Definately a note worthy moment.
I am working three jobs to make money. To make money for what?
My dreams...But what are my dreams? I have no clue.
To go to the beach for a few days
to go to Cedar Point
Go camping
All my friends are going away to college and I am staying here close to home in boring old Ohio,
I want that sensation of going away of starting a new chapter in my life.
I want to move out by September with my Boyfriend and another friend
I don't know how my parents will take it
But as of right now that is my one and only dream
to get out and live my life
with my boyfriend. Yes
So i am going to make it happen
no matter what the outcome
So here is to the beginning of a new chapter

I've got an Itch

ahhhhhh fuck it, fuck it all
I'm one of those people who can settle for normal
though eventually I need a little umph added to a day
so if nothing crazy happens I go out and I find it MYSELF
Like
-Starting fights with Seth just to fight, just to be the victim just to win
-doing stupid things (writing someone a letter i shouldn't have....)
Tonight though damn....I had an itch
An itch for an added umph with a little hrumph and hrmmmm as well
the whole kittenkaboodle
God i hate this feeling
what has occured because of this feeling in the past
-use to cut my hair
-dyed my hair
-pierced my ears
-night runs and morning runs
-wardrobe malfunctions
-Stupid fights
-Stupid acts by me...
-stuffing my face with food
-sneaking out everynight for about a week straight
-going into "I'm a Poet!" stage
-Fantasizing and over looking ideas for a damn tattoo
-Online Shopping
-Looking up 50 ways to do my hair
and so many other things...so as you can see this feeling does no good at all
though
I feel the need to stretch to get away, to do something completely fucking crazy!!!
GET CRAZY GET LOUD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVERYBODY GO CRAZY. aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

 fuck

Blah, Bleh, Eh, Arch, Har ,Gar

Gotta Evolve

I have the Gatorade commercial evolve stuck in my head
right now i am obsessed with obtaining that song with few resources
so right now i am just replay after replay of that lovely catchy tune:)
I am also watching MADE one of the very shows I spend my time watching
it's a great concept in itself...
Throughout my time as a senior (5 weeks) I am thinking, ALOT!
it's ridiculous actually, but all the same the two main items occupying my thoughts are.
the First is Happiness
and the Second is Becoming me and doing for me what I want to do, just like that!
I guess in a way those two thoughts are one in the same.
I want to do so many things in such a short time because honestly
it is now or never and that sucks but at least I know it.
Somethings I want to do for my self right now are.....
-Get birth control
-Get a tattoo
-Get a haircut
-Feel equal in my relationships
-get a motorcycle
-Get a better job
-go zip linin (I am at the end of October)
-Overall just be Happy:)
here's hoping!

Freedom

FREEDOM

what more can I say?

Ladies and Gentlemen; Emma Rengert has left the building

I'm living in my future more than the present

I don't care anymore about now

I'm only fantasizing about my Future

my lovely amazing wonderfully beautiful Future.

It's perfect and I can't wait.

the present doesn't even matter to me anymore

I've already graduated in my Head

Bought an apartment, ; landed a better job, attending college

I feel like my Senior year will be a hazy blur

GOD fuck High School.

Who gives a crap about my Senior year, Fuck It.

I just want it to all be over

the sad thing is it hasn't even started yet.

High School is so last year.

Fuck.

When did life get so complicated

I've Grown up, unfortunately

I am beginning to realize how behind I am

How unprepared I am for the life I will soon live

Ready or Not

I am definately Not ready

I'm kicking my ass into High Gear

Today though I realized a little to late

A little to late to achieve my desired GPA

to late to go back and better ready myself for what's to come

to late, to behind, to clueless

I don't have a clue

I don't know anything about what my Future holds

I don't have a career picked out not even a possible career option

I slacked off to long even now with my tremendous change in school

to late to think and change some of my financial decisions

It's all too late

"I'm late, I'm Late for a very important date.

No time to say hello, good-bye

I'm Late I'm Late I'm LATE!!!"

Time is our enemy, I wish I had another year

another year to grow and expand on the new me

this person I have just discovered.

High School is Bullshit, it's ridiculous

A bunch of horomonial Teens expirementing in Life

so much that it takes years to find yourself, to know who you are

I am one of those unfortunate souls.

I've straightened my life up but it's a year to late.

I'm Hopeless.

It's pathetic.