Talentless little Me

I posses no talents or even a talent.
I see people who are smart as Einstein, maybe even more
Good writers
Good athlete's
musicians
People who can play instruments
and so many other things.....
But me I am a talentless little nothing
I can not write well
I suck at playing any musical instrument
I am very clumsy at sports
I am average smart
I have a little girl voice that can't keep a pitch of any sort
I've never been recognized, never won an outstanding award, nada
eh, IDK i just feel so unspecial, so plain. SO what the fuck is my talent?
Because I've been told everyone has one.

Survive

I'm done, life is boring, life is a routine, life is a fucking joke

My life has withered away to a daily routine

I've been feeling the need to stretch lately

Stretch out of my skin

GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!

I want to (at the risk of sounding like a melo-dramatic teenager) Run-away

I want to get away from work school, everyone I know

I want a new start

I'm not sure if I can wait another year

I need to Breathe

Gone with the Wind

Well I expierenced my first AP exam, and well......I have decided to never take another AP test again as long as I live. Four painful hours where I picked my brain apart and came up empty, I was quite frazzled to say the least. I do not care about my AP score because in the long run it does not affect me but let me tell you once again when that AP exam was over I walked outside it was beautiful with the wind blowing full force ahead and I stood motionless I just stopped I felt drained, lifeless, emotionless, and I have never felt like that ever!!! It was upsetting and it fowled my mood quite a lot. However though with it all done the only thing that I want to do ever since I left school at 4 is to drive somewhere and just sit outside laying in the grass being engulfed by the wind and just enjoy this nice weather become one with it and just fade away for awhile. I'm thinking about driving and doing that I just need to be outside for a few hours to get my center back to feel better. I want to be left alone I want to feel like I am all alone where I can just be me and relax with no pressures of the world pressing down on me. Awww that sounds absolutely radiant. GOODBYE WORLD!!!!!

Clarity

I feel nothing, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to respond, to act, to think about you.....

I really thought and truly felt like we would be together always, together into our old age

That all seems so silly at this point. WHO ARE YOU?!? I don't know you anymore.

I Love You but that truly is not enough...

everyday is a struggle, another fight, another fresh wound to all the other ones still needing to be healed. None of what i thought seems plausible is anymore.

By now we should be perfect we should be good. but I'm not HAPPY!!! and I need to be.

We are so different which in the end is turning out to be not so great.

I can't take this emotional roller coaster anymore...I can't think straight

I don't know whether I should end it or if i'm on another roller coaster ride that will end shortly.

I need to know if what I am doing is really the sane Emma making this Huge Decision.

I need to know that I am doing the right thing.

How do I possibly say good bye to someone I love someone I truly care about

Someone who will always be apart of my life.

I Love You so much but it hurts right now

With you its always endless promises that you can't keep, I can't handle it anymore.

I CAN NOT FIGHT WITH YOU ONE MORE TIME!!!!!!!!!

I'm tired of crying. of feeling like it's always all my fault.

We always make up but this time i don't know, I think we may be beyond that right now

this time I may not come back. I'm not happy anymore and I'm not sure if it, if we can be fixed....i'm scared.

I need something anything a sign of some sort to let me know if what I am probably going to do is the right thing to do, I need to know. GOD!!!! please.....