Ladies and Gentlemen; Emma Rengert has left the building

I'm living in my future more than the present

I don't care anymore about now

I'm only fantasizing about my Future

my lovely amazing wonderfully beautiful Future.

It's perfect and I can't wait.

the present doesn't even matter to me anymore

I've already graduated in my Head

Bought an apartment, ; landed a better job, attending college

I feel like my Senior year will be a hazy blur

GOD fuck High School.

Who gives a crap about my Senior year, Fuck It.

I just want it to all be over

the sad thing is it hasn't even started yet.

High School is so last year.

Fuck.

When did life get so complicated

I've Grown up, unfortunately

I am beginning to realize how behind I am

How unprepared I am for the life I will soon live

Ready or Not

I am definately Not ready

I'm kicking my ass into High Gear

Today though I realized a little to late

A little to late to achieve my desired GPA

to late to go back and better ready myself for what's to come

to late, to behind, to clueless

I don't have a clue

I don't know anything about what my Future holds

I don't have a career picked out not even a possible career option

I slacked off to long even now with my tremendous change in school

to late to think and change some of my financial decisions

It's all too late

"I'm late, I'm Late for a very important date.

No time to say hello, good-bye

I'm Late I'm Late I'm LATE!!!"

Time is our enemy, I wish I had another year

another year to grow and expand on the new me

this person I have just discovered.

High School is Bullshit, it's ridiculous

A bunch of horomonial Teens expirementing in Life

so much that it takes years to find yourself, to know who you are

I am one of those unfortunate souls.

I've straightened my life up but it's a year to late.

I'm Hopeless.

It's pathetic.

Dilemma rythmes with Emma

Not a Very good quality but my Dad took this photo. It looks a lot better though

I have a Dilemma .... I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE!!!!!
but ...... I WANT TO SEE LUCY AND SETH!!!!!
and there is my dilemma. OH MY and what a Dilemma it is indeed.
I love it her waking up every morning, eating breakfast at the breakfast nook
while looking out into the Ocean. Then going to the Ocean for hours
Swimming, walking along the Beach, collecting Shells.
Then home for Lunch.
Back out to the Sound to go Kayaking, catching crabs, exploring the ship wreck.
Then home for Dinner- I cooked dinner one night MEATLOAF:)
Then down to the Beach for a Bonfire, with smores!!!
It's very relaxing. I have absolutely no worries no drama
I don't think I have been stressed or upset once since I left old Ohio:)-
plus I am getting tan:)!!!!!
But i miss Lucy so much soosooosooosooosooo Much!
I miss SETH MICHAEL HARRISON<3
and I miss the flow and go of my daily old Ohio life.

Tutorial

I have two major items on the very tip top of my to-do list
1. Get a Tutor for the ACT; only really need help with English and Math.
I think I could do really really well if I just damn understood it.
I mean I got a 10 on my writing and almost perfects in Science and Reading
AGHHHHH I need help.
2. Learn Sign Language from an actual person. Because going back and forth on the computer is just very time consuming and proning me even more towards getting headaches. It's something I really have the passion to learn right now.
AGHHHHHH AGAIN!!! Speech Pathology is perfect. I just want to get ahead of the game here but goodness!
Where to find a Tutor and someone mastered in the art of Sign Language, life is just to damn difficult.

Bat in the Cave

I think I know what I want to do later in Life

as a possible Career and that is

Be a Speech Pathologist.

Its perfect, mainly because I can relate and I understand

Plus I'd be helping people out:)

Its nearly perfect...

besides the fact that

I am still stuck pronouncing words incorrectly

yesterday I found out I can not say the word

BOOGER.

I said it twenty times before I got it correct

It was frustrating as Hell

I felt disabled

My mouth and jaw and lips so out of whack

It was difficult...

It's like my mouth was tuning out my brain

it took me back, way way way back

GOD I can't even say BOOGER correctly

repetition. repetition. repetition.

God it's like starting all over again

 ever time I find a new word

I am back to the beginning.

Yes, it makes me an individual

unique; in a sense

But all the same it sucks after saying it so many times

that I can still not correctly get a grip on it

It's like my tongue is turned to Jello

I do not appreciate my individualism right now

NOT AT ALL!!!