Finish Line

This past week has been fucking hectic. I've yet to get a break to relax, This week was filled with endless doctor appoinments, catchign up on missed hmwk, work, YPA, college visit, outlines, pictures, haircut, boyfriend and some of these things repeat more than once but in no particular order. I've gotten to bed at 3 the past week and have been lucky enough to make it to homeroom just as the bell rings. It's the pressure of this ending year of school. Struggling to understand all the classes in order to achieve excellence on all assignments, quizzes, and tests. Exams are looming around the corner, the stress it never ends. Friday though is my day finally at least partially. I've become so unconnected with the world with my friends but i can't seem to crawl out of my den far enough to enjoy the little freedom i now give myself. I can see why i never use to care it eliminates stress and without stress i could sleep and enjoy my life but this year is bogged me to my bedroom, I NEED A BREAK!!!!!! badly. My AP Euro Exam is on Friday so I will be spending this entire week minus work and important classes studying studying studying. Its been three constant weeks of work and no play or fun or sleep. Now with Exams it seems i will never acquire my bliss.

I mentioned though earlier that my one day break is coming on Friday, partially. I still have school, YPA, and work but when all that is done I will not study or lift a single book on Friday I will go to work cheery as can be I will be working with JB so that is a plus, but after.......oh the beauty of my night.

I am going to be treated like a princess spoiled rotten and after all i do deserve it. Seth has promised me my day and ohh it will be good, I get to pick the restaurant,I can go anywhere, I can order anything, and then a movie of my choosing and I get to pick the theater, and after his house. I will not have to drive, lift my finger, or demand i be given attention because oh baby my night has come:)

Fire Burning

Today I got a text from somebody who use to be one of my best friend's last year, up and out of the nowhere blue. So now were talking and we've both changed so much in only a year's time. We fell apart but i do not even remember the moment we drifted. I don't know if it was mutual, because we hung out and watched a movie, then second semester swung around and we literally just both stopped talking to each other. It's weird. But the thing is that happens alot and it's just unexplainable. Though there is still hope since we were such good friends I think we can rekindle our little friendship spark I am gonna try:)
plus:
Irene were getting Yogurt, OH and Seth is applying there:) so i'll text you to see when your free!!!!!
&Megan well you just texted me so I will see you soon :)

Shout-Outs my Dearie's

My Life has changed quite a lot in these past two weeks and I think it is only appropriate to give thanks and appreciation where it is dually needed.
Person #1- My Mother- for making me eat breakfast
Person #2- My Dad- for taking me on my first college visit, which got me excited and thinking about how to apply myself within this next year and a half and what i can work towards for college
Person #3- Irenie- for giving me her ACT book, which is all i have been doing lately. I am determined to learn it inside and out I want a 27 or higher and i am going to get it!
p.s-once Megan teaches me soacahtoa which i probably just spelled wrong, see i need help!!! then i will kick butt.
Person #4- Chenny- for asking me to run with her, which only got me started up on running again.
Person #5- Mr. Seth- for being my overall inspiration and making me want to push my self even harder for this ending quarter. Plus I think I have finally had my "break through", because of him. THANK GOD!!!!

I mean obviously i know it is ALL ME;) but you all helped me Start up the "NEW ME:)".
so i have decided to give blood, If i am qualified?!? I am currently (just checked) at 111. Quite a lucky number if i must say so. I heard you have to be either 110 or 115 pounds. So i am hoping i will be able to do it because the New Me is conquering my fears and phobia's one at a time. Needles and Giving Blood only seem appropriate as my #1. So wish me luck!!!!
p.s.- anyone who wants to join me is more than welcome, we can schedule it at the same time, because i will need my hand held and my inhaler at the ready.

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Tile Floor

I can not wait until I can go to College, I went on my first visit today. So many things to start thinking about and considering but i did figure out two things. One being I always grew up wanting to get out of Ohio, but now that has changed I do not care about Leaving anymore just that I am a reasonable amount of time away to live the Dorm Life. The second, I want to go somewhere, where none of my friends are going. I want that Fresh start, I want to surround my self with a whole new unfamiliar setting, where I learn to cope by myself which I can not do with the constants of friends around, I am ready. I can not wait, I love my friends and am greatful for them, I will of course miss them all. However that has nothing to do when I decide upon my College, it is all about me when it comes to what I decide I just want to be Free to be that little worm lost in the big apple so to say.
I'm ready to go it alone.

Run Emma Run!!!

Running, how to explain it....I feel so Great, so Happy in a sense.

Today or yesterday (by 30mins) I went running with Megan Cha-Chen

I haven't run or worked out in forever, I tried to weasle my way out but it didn't work
So we went running..........IT WAS PERFECT (at least for me;) )
I ran and i did not stop, I did not once think to Stop, and I held up a conversation even though my head was pounding and my Mouth was dry, It truly makes it go by fast taking attention away from the actual act of running. I felt great I still do feel great. Running is Freedom, it's just you and the pavement.

But here is the thing when I run and feel good about myself I promise that I'm gonna start running everyday, eating healthier, etc. etc. I'm sure everyone has done it.
I made a promise today to Join Cross Country, I may just have voluntariliy committed suicide but I want to do it, and for once I will stay true to my word.
With this whole new Emma, I am keeping the work-out and eat healthier plan/promise to, just gotta be smart about it and reason working out every other day or indulging in some twizzzlers or what not. Don't be so strict, even though deits and regimes are strict I say HA!

So here it is Emma taking two steps forward hoping not to be pushed back.

Perfection is a Myth